CURURU

http://hakanphotography.deviantart.com/art/Suicide-Girls-48568848

The person whom she loved and shared everything disappeared one day with all the money in her bank account that she worked very hard to save. She was a beautician for Shiseido. So all of a sudden she had zero in her bank account . She got into a depression and moved back in with her family. At the time I met her, she was in town to make a police report for the 3rd time for the guy who fleed with her money. They couldn't find him. After she got sick , she lost her job, the doctors prevented her to work, she lost so much weight, at the time she was 34kgs. She had a big bottle of Shochu ( a Japanese alcoholic drink ) in her hand and was drinking in the afternoon the first time I met her in a park. She talked to me. She showed me her old photos where she looked so different and happy. We became good friends later on. But now I lost contact with her, she has disappeared as well. She was 24 years old.

血淋淋的事實..

每一個地方也有其悲哀之處...或者多, 或者少..但, 總是有的.

問題是

大家看到嗎?

還是一直被無視了?

哈日之前, 先看看以上的post再說吧.

也許 我們已經很幸福

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在聽Lacrimas Profundare的<<And the Wings Embraced Us >>

好懷念的感覺......

尤其是Flute

不完美, 但卻也因而很完美.

Cassandra- Theatre of Tragedy

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u_QcMk9FBo4

Cassandra was the daughter of King Priam and Queen Hecuba of Troy.

Her beauty caused Apollo to grant her the gift of prophecy.However, when she did not return his love, Apollo placed a curse on her so that no one would ever believe her predictions. [from wiki]

歌很好聽, 毫不比同碟的Siren遜色. 但更加感觸良多的是歌詞&內容.

不提Apollo, Cassandra, 於當時的社會,算是"少數"吧. 還要是女性-在父權社會之下.

她所想所說的, 都不受旁人接受--大家沒有去細想, 就直接將她的言論當成deviant, problematic. 但Cassandra看到的, 真如旁人所想 都是謬論嗎?

Cassandra或只是神話裡的一角; 無奈的是, 現代社會何嘗不也如是?

主流聲音/論點總被定義為對的--"若然是錯, 又何會有如此多人相信?"

少數觀點沒給納入思考範圍中; 更甚是, 有些更被定義為deviant. 定義為"有問題"

大家認為事實只有一面. "事實就是事實"

可是啊,

何為之對與錯? 何為之事實? 世上有絕對的對與錯嗎? 有"單一面的事實"這一回事嗎?

分析一件事是善是惡, 究竟應該由哪入手?

把看不過眼的事鏟除, 就會雨過天晴?

我們一直相信的真理, 又有幾多是確切的真理?

人,當權者, 既得利益者, 我們, 總是如己身所表達的一樣嗎?

"Democracy"是devil or angel?

最近, 上課, 寫paper, 看新聞......都想得很多.

泰國的政局啟示了香港人什麼? 究竟是民主好, 還是安定好?

港大陳一諤又反映了社會什麼現象? 我們一直被教育的, 是100%真還是一個deception? 有一面倒的對, 一面倒的錯嗎?

政府,經濟體系與民生的關係是啥? 共產固然不可行, 但資本主義又何嘗完全是好?

教育是為了什麼? 是為了教一班有潛質的學生, 還是培育整體的人? 香港的教育, 教的其實是...?

或者是我想得太多吧...

打這一篇entry時, 有點不想再"想"下去. 想得越多, 無奈悲痛也越多.

看書看累了, 想要換去看希臘神話. 想不到, 到頭來還是tragedy.